Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Christ is Risen!

too much to say...

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

The Convent founded by Saint Elizabeth the New Martyr

I stumbled across this photo on flickr today. For any who don't know, St Elizabeth is the patroness of our church.

Monday, April 17, 2006

how rude

The tailgait of my truck was stolen tonight, from the post office parking lot. I was at work and too busy to move my truck, and when I left work at the end of the night I noticed the tailgait was GONE!

Holy Monday

Tone 8
Behold the Bridgegroom comes in the middle of the night; and blessed is the sesrvant whom He shall find watching, but unworthy is he whom He shall find in slothfulness. Beware, then, O my soul, and be not overcome by sleep, lest thou be given over to death and shut out from the Kingdom. But return to soberness and cry aloud: Holy, holy, holy art Thou, O God: through the Theotokos have mercy upon us.

sessional hymn, Tone 1
Today the Holy Passion shines forth upon the world with the light of salvation; for Christ in His love hastens to His sufferings. He who holds all things in the hollow of His hand consents to be hung upon the Tree, that He may save mankind.

sessional hymn, Tone 1
O Judge invisible, how art Thou made visible in the flesh? How dost Thou now draw near to be slain by lawless men, condemning by Thy Passion our own condemnation? Therefore with one accord, O Word, we ascribe praise, majesty and glory to Thy power.

Tone 5
We have come, O faithful, to the saving Passion of Christ our God; let us glorify His ineffable forbearance, that in His tender mercy He may also raise us up who have been slain by sin, for He is good and loves mankind.

Palm Sunday

By raising Lazarus from the dead before Your passion,
You did confirm the universal Resurrection, O Christ God!
Like the children with the palms of victory,
We cry out to You, O Vanquisher of death;
Hosanna in the Highest!
Blessed is He that comes in the Name of the Lord!

(more photos here)

Saturday, April 15, 2006


From "Wounded By Love: The Life and the Wisdom of Elder Porphyrios"

"'The joy that is in God is stronger than this present life. And he who finds this joy, not only will he not pay attention to the passions, but he will not even give a thought to his own life, nor will he have awareness of anything else, if his experience of this joy is true. Love is sweeter than life. And the concord with God from which love is born is sweeter than honey and the honeycomb. It does not seem grievous to Love to undergo a bitter death for the sake of her beloved... And to the heart which has received this joy every sweetness of this world seems superfluous. For there is nothing which can be likened to the sweetness of the knowledge of God.'(St Isaac the Syrian)
...The 'height of virtue' is the love of God which is perfect and absolute. 'Punctured': when our soul is 'punctured', when she is wounded by divine longing, the susceptibility of the flesh to the passions withers away. Divine craving defeats every pain, and so every pain is transformed and becomes love of Christ. Love Christ and He will love you. All pains will pass away, they will be defeated and transformed. Then everything becomes Christ, Paradise. But in order to live in Paradise, we must first die- die to everything and be as if dead. Then we will live truly; we will live in Paradise. If we do not first die to our old self nothing happens."

Friday, April 14, 2006


I subscribe to NPR's "All Songs Considered" podcast and decided to listen to it driving home this afternoon. The show was about the CD release of a boxed set of early Beatles albums not available on CD thus far. It was interesting to listen to the discussion about the differences between the American and English versions of the albums.

Thursday, April 13, 2006

bathroom saga

My shower has been leaking underneath the floor into my closet. Now the shower has been torn out and is sitting in pieces in my driveway. Everything is out of the closet and sitting in my bedroom and living room. Hopefully this will all be finished and put back together by the time my mom arrives on Holy Wednesday. In the meantime I'll be taking showers in the "big house", that is my landlord's/neighbor's. It'll be nice when it's all taken care of and the floor is dry and there's no mold, or moisture ants.

Wednesday, April 12, 2006


From Fr Wayne at St Barnabas via John.

For Lazarus also, whom the Lord raised up, exuded so fetid an odor that no one could approach his tomb, as a symbol of Adam whose soul exuded such a great stench and was full of blackness and darkness. But you, when you hear about Adam and the wounded traveler and Lazarus, do not let your mind wander as it were into the mountains, but remain inside within your soul, because you also carry the same wounds, the same smell, the same darkness.
We are all his sons and we all inherit the same stench. Therefore, the passions that he suffered, all of us, who are of Adam's seed, suffer also. For such a suffering has hit us, as Isaiah says: "It is not a wound, nor a bruise, nor an inflamed sore. It is impossible to apply a soothing salve or oil or to make bandages" (Is 1:6). Thus we were wounded with an incurable wound. Only the Lord could heal it. For this he came in his own person because no one of the ancients nor the Law itself nor the prophets were able to heal it. He alone, when he came, healed that sore, the incurable sore of the soul.

Let us, therefore, receive God the Lord, the true healer, who alone can come to heal our souls, after he has borne so much on our behalf. For he is always knocking at the doors of our hearts in order that we may open up to him and that he may enter in and take his rest in our souls, and that we may wash his feet and he may take up his abode with us. For this purpose he endured many sufferings, giving his body over to death and buying our ransom from slavery so that he, coming to our soul, might make his abode there.
...........St. Macarius, Spiritual Homilies

Tuesday, April 11, 2006


A little 90 year old woman had a chest x-ray taken at work tonight, by a portable x-ray machine. Afterwards she shuffled around person to person in her wheelchair asking how the photo turned out. At the same time I was carrying around the polaroid camera on my medication chart taking pictures of patients for our medication records. The pictures serve in the place of name bands on the wrist. I thought it might distract her from waiting for the other "photo" if I took her picture and gave it to her. She was delighted, but confused when I handed her the polaroid which didn't have a picture. I told her to wait and it would show up. Another resident told me that she was fascinated by the "magic" picture. She carried it around all night and showed everyone the picture, saying, "I'm popular," since she had two "photos" taken that day.

Monday, April 10, 2006

doggie update

I had a message from the vet when I got home from work tonight with the lab results. It was a benign fatty tumor. Woo hoo! No cancer. She's fine and hasn't had any pain medicine since Friday night. It took her a while to start to eat and drink normally, but she's back to her usual routine.

Thursday, April 06, 2006


Nani had surgery yesterday. The lump on her abdomen was not a hernia, it was a mass and has been sent to a lab for testing. She was sent home with pain medication and is recovering. She's so tiny that I can stretch my hand across the E-collar. Her quiet wimpers are really pitiful.

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

one more thing

How could I forget? Our parish is moving into our own place! Well, our own place much more than renting use of a Roman Catholic church. We have leased a space in a business park in poulsbo and move in May 1st! We have an iconostasis already, and may have an altar. Glory to God!


received from John, cut to my heart.

Let us be satisfied simply with what sustains our present life, not with what pampers it. Let us pray to God for this, as we have been taught, so that we may keep our souls unenslaved and absolutely free from domination by any of the visible things loved for the sake of the body. Let us show that we eat for the sake of living, and not be guilty of living for the sake of eating. The first is a sign of intelligence, the second proof of its absence.
St. Maximos the Confessor

"...the Lord Jesus said, 'To those who are in bonds, Come out, and to those who are in prison, Go forth' (Isa. 49:9); so your sins are forgiven. All, then, are forgiven, nor is there any one whom He has not loosed. For thus it is written, that He has forgiven 'all transgressions, doing away with the handwriting of the ordinance that was against us' (Col. 2:13-14). Why, then, do we hold the bonds of others, while we enjoy our own remission? He, who forgave all, required of all that what every one remembers to have been forgiven to himself, he also should forgive others."
St. Ambrose


Yes, I'm ok, I know it's been a while. I'm just exhausted. My sister is here now. It's been really nice to see her. We had another nurse fired, and work had been tiring. My sister started her orientation at my workplace today. We've had extra choir practiced getting ready for Holy Week and Pascha. My little dog is going in Wednesday morning for surgery, she has a lump on her abdomen. The vet thinks it could either be scar tissue from her spay, a hernia secondary to her spay, or a mass that would need to be sent to a lab and biopsied.